Heyyo
Happy Turkey Day, how is everyone doing? ?? ???
Let’s address the elephant in the room and get that out of the way: America is in a real tough spot these days! Our defining characteristics of individuality and consumerism are looking more and more like narcissism and a lack of accountability every day. Then on a global scale we continue to be really into firearms, yippee!
The trauma is blunt force y’all, do you feel it too? Do you feel like you’re getting hit on the head with a really heavy and sort of rusty hammer? There’s not a person wielding it, the hammer just follows and floats above you, smacking your forehead when you least expect it.
I wish I was able to inspire some type of confidence and hope into you readers, say “Don’t worry! I’m your superhero now!” But particularly in times like these, my number one power remains dissociation, so I’m finding it hard to string the words together with much conviction. I want to provide you with smiles, but if I’m not dissociating, I’m mad. Who am I mad at? The institution that raised me? No, the jackass who is taking advantage of the institution that raised me. Let’s be real, the institution also has it’s flaws. And the federal government did not raise me, my mother did. So I’m defending myself against my fellow Americans who voted a certain way? That doesn’t feel right though either, because I feel relatively safe in my day-to-day. Like most people, I live in a bubble, and to be honest I feel attached to my bubble because I created it for myself. America!
As you can see, I’m feeling a lot.
My plan: Take an art class, pick my battles wisely, and keep showing up to work.
Let’s hope those public servants use their bureaucratic talents to file specifically those anti-abortion and anti-lgbtq+ bills as slowly as possible. There’s gotta be some other problem that we can focus on - solar panel permits! Probably!!
Before I leave you, I would like to wax poetic about some clothes and hope that helps the pain go away.
Outfits that I find inspiring:
I’ve been watching a lot of basketball to calm myself (thank you basketball). And those tall people sure do know how to dress. Or at least have fun with it.
These pants are wild. The denim looks super comfortable. The green bag, with the touches of pink and Timberland brown. It’s a great rainy day outfit, I want to wear it.
There’s something about men’s basketball, the NBA, that really holds my attention. The WNBA makes me way too jealous, I cannot sit still and watch it. I’m working on it, okay! Still grieving the other timeline where I’m living my best life playing women’s sports professionally, jeez give me a second.
The non-women though! The consequences of the high-rolling athlete life are so far removed from mine I’m able to focus purely on the aesthetics. Plus, my body type is just close enough to Nikola Jokic’s that I can make up fantastical gay dreams about them. I provide the entire emotional arc, and it’s the perfect recipe for escapism.
Here’s a different version of the same style of pants By Adam Small. The silhouette is pleasing, and the textures pair well.
In reality, the way sports broadcasts so effectively use consumerism to distract from shady politics is really bumming me out at the moment. It’s hard to focus on aesthetics when the scales of who we are watching and who controls what we see are so tipped.
But these men carry a lot of bags - like large hand bags. Some briefcases and some backpacks. But Bottega Veneta and those crossbody bags sure do keep me on a treasure hunt.
Eric Bana in a crop top battle outfit.
Have you watched the 2004 action epic Troy recently? A star-studded cast that hold vivid memories from my childhood.
It’s a cropped armor vest and a mid-thigh skirt with fringe. Blues, greys, geometric shapes, and he fights like a professional in it.
Let’s bring back war skirts.
I would also like to highlight Brad Pitt’s hair/wig combo. What color is it? Pure gold.
Sorry to objectify men so much this month, it just feels like the right thing to do.
My struggle right now is figuring out how to find meaning in this shallow society we’ve built for ourselves. But a dear friend reminded me that you don’t have to trust everyone to put something back into your community. You just have to make the first move and follow your gut.
Happy Holidays!
Carson
Wonderful! One of your best!